Do people still look at these?? Well, I know some people still look at them from time to time. With that said I have some updating to do. Funny how life works, I am now enlisted in the Marine Corp. Man, I really thought that was my last opition, but I got a chance to be in the band and I made it!!!! I am now in the Marine Corp Band, lets jump for joy for Manzur....ok enough jumping. Other than that, life has been pretty good. This past week has been a dream come true. I have had so much fun everday. Althought its my last week, I am having the time of my life. I have mainly been spending time with my other half. You guys should already know who that is, ya'll have been reading these things long enough to know who it is. I leave July 10 and I am hoping the time dosen't change on me again. But as soon as I get back hopefully Xanga will still be up and running, and I'll update this thing then. Ok, everyone have a GREAT rest of the week. ADIOS!! 

Well its going to be official today. I am going to talk to my mom about enlisting. I hope she takes it well cause last time she didn't, but only this time I am going to do it with or without her approval. I am a bit nervous cause I am actually going thru with it this time. I hear its completly normal to be nervous or scared but man I am both! Well, I still haven't decided what branch yet, but the only one left to talk to is the Air Force. I talked to the Marines and Army, and boy did the Army offer some really good benifits. I am going to take the exam tomorrow that allows me to choose my job, and then I am going to talk to the Air Force. I am very excitied but yet I look around sometimes and wonder how I will look at the world when I get back from boot camp... They say any branch changes you forever, but I always see it different. I know I'll still be myself when I come back. Man I talk like I am leaving tomorrow. Well anywho, I have to go to class now so I will update on the situation later. ADIOS!!

"Coming Undone"

Keep holding on
When my brain's tickin' like a bomb
Guess the black thoughts have come Again to get me
Sweet bitter words
Unlike nothing I have heard
Sing along mocking bird
You don't affect me

That's right
Deliverance of my heart
Be straight
Be deliberate

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Wait
I'm coming undone
Unlaced
I'm coming undone
Too late
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate
Wait
I'm starting to suffocate
And soon I anticipate
I'm coming undone
What looks so strong
So delicate

Choke choke again
I find my demons were my friends
Getting me in the end
They're out to get me
Since I was young
I've tasted sorrow on my tongue
And this sweet chugga gun
Does not protect me

That's right
Trigger between my eyes
Please strike
Make it quick now

[Chorus]

I'm trying to hold it together
Head is lighter than a feather
Looks like i'm not getting better
Not getting better

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